Ah, no tengo ganas de escribir en ingles hoy. A la mierda, estoy cansada de craquearme con el. perdonen el horripilante espaniol que utilizo, pero despues de estar tanto tiempo en una laptop, no ñ y no áéíóú, creeme que no se me hace facil acostumbrarme a un teclado en espaniol. Asique, buen provecho digiriendo mi entrada. No es como si muchos la leyeran anyways, hahaha.

No escribo desde... wow, no se.
Mi vida es un pedo, asique mucho el tiempo ni me acuerdo de que tengo un LJ.
Bueno, de que me logeo, leo los amigos, no comento y me voy a dormir. :)
Es lo ultimo que hago, despues de visitar que si el twitter, el myspace, el socialvibe, y toda esa porqueria que me aleja de mis estudios. Ni que estudiara mucho yo, pero de vez en cuando no esta mal repasar. :)

Y si acabo de escribir chorradas escribiria alguno que otro detalle interesante pero nada que ver, interesante yo? Ha.

El semestre comenzo y no es facil. Me la he pasado llora que llora, con estres y dolor. A veces todo lo que quiero es salir de la universidad, y tener un poco de tiempo para mi. Pero en mi casa eso es impossible, asique ni lo trato. He estado leyendo mucho otra vez. Me he comido ya como 5 libros en lo que va de semestre, hahaha. Y voy a empesar a releer La momia de anne rice, porque me encanta Ramses el faraon, y todo el hecho de que es anne rice escribiendo mega caoticamente brutal es suficiente.

Ahora mismo estoy en el laboratorio de la universidad. Osea, de que si no fuera por que necesito hacer algo "productivo"para pasar el tiempo no estaria escribiendo ninguna de estas boberias.

Y el problema es que una ves que empieso a escribir no me gusta parar, y por eso muchas veces ni trato de escribir aqui. Vease como la razon el hecho de que no tengo nada que escribir que valga la pena y que entonces todo lo que hago es escribir estupideces. Bleh. He estado pensando en abrir un LJ solo para escribir mis "cuentecillos". De esas raras veces que decido escribir algo, que es verdaderamente productivo y que vale la pena que otros lean. No como las boberias que hago dia a dia porque se suicidarian de lo aburrida que soy. yay!

pero por joder lo hare :)
Veran de que me levanto a las 5 y media todas las mananas aunque mi primera clase sea a las 10 y media. Puesto que en casa solo hay un carro, tengo que salir con mi papa que entra a las 8. Wooo, se siente super mega estupido levantarse tan temprano para llegar al trabajo de tu papa y dormir en el parking por no tener nada mejor que hacer. Cuando llego a la universidad, o estoy sola por horas muertas esperando a que salga de clases algun amigo, o me siento en este mismo laboratorio a abusar, y no sexualmente, de sus computadoras. (lol estoy mega aburrida, gracias)

Despues entro a mi primera clase, y salgo para 'hangiar' con pepe, la unica persona que tengo alrededor de mi la mayoria del tiempo. un saludito ahi a Daniel XD, aja siguiendo. Este semestre cojo japones, y no es nada de dificil pero no es la cosa mas facil de este mundo, en especial los malditos numeros. Ahhhh. Gohyoku y lo que sea. Ese es el unico que me se y creanme que no se cual es. Creo que es 500 :D Religion es la cosa mas dificil de tragar, ever. Si no fuera porque Daniel esta en el salon y aveces podemos compartir teorias que rayan la estupides mas grande del planeta, creo que moriria. Pero la mayoria del tiempo Daniel esta dormido asique de nada me sirve su compania en tan aburrida clase. :( Es que el profe habla y habla y creeme que no le entiendo mierda de lo que dice. :( Y por favoritas tengo Espanio y Japones. :) Haciendo mencion honorifica de gerencia y comunicaciones 215 que son divertidisimas.

Y ya. Tantan. Me voy por ahora, Mari Carmen quiere que le compre un Sammich (Sandwhich para los que no entiendan) de mayoketchup plein. A ver como sobrevivo el aburrimiento que me espera, media hora mas en lo que mis queridos amigos salen de su clase de contabilidad. Que por lo que veo no es con la profe del primer semestre porque ella ta aqui al lado mio. :)

//edit: NARUTO SALIO HOY, wooo no mas espera. Y Kankuro ta tan chulo mem 8D
Y gaara, awwwwwwwwwwwwww de que hice un awwwwwwww bn duro y me miraron como WTF la gente que esta aqui al rededor, lol 8D Y tema tema yay! hahaha, que aburrida >.< Pero de que el manga de hoy esta super cool porque sale Kankuro, obvio de que si :) le doi 10 cocholates :D

i was called yesterday by dad to tell me he found me a job. i came here today and voila, a camp! fuck all this kids, they are crazyyyyyyy. help T_T

do you have twitter? ADD ME >:3 if it is now even better because Im at my sister's prom, sitting bcause I know nothing about dancing... not that I know anyone to dance with :(


twitter: pinguin0s

first:
I wake up because people are invading my damned room.
The only place I get a little tiny fucking bitty piece of privacy.
I was fucking sleeping without pants, so everyone could see my underwear.
I was pissed.
and what made it worse?
They had already, turned on my laptop and accessed my fucking facebook account.
To top it all, I am unable to go out and hang out, not even if it means only just walking around the mall, not buying anything or whatever. I can't.
Besides it's not like anyone would go out with me this week, everyone is at 'Las Justas' getting drunk, having sex, drugs and idk what else because I'm never allowed to go out to places with loud music and large amount of people.

I want to go.
I wont drink, or do anything stupid, I'd just like to hang out, with friends, enjoy the artists...
but I can't.

You know what, forget it. Between having stupid family members that enjoy seeing you suffer, and bothering you nonstop to the point where I can't type what I originally sat here to write about because I'm so mad I forgot... I just want to have MY stuff, for once.
Not having to share.
I want to be a normal teenager, that has fun instead of having a computer as her only friend, because those who say are my friends are too busy enjoying their lives somewhere else.
I'm tired of not doing for once what I wish to do.


Oh, I'm also tired of 13 year old kids, believing that they are so hardcore because they are allowed to do everything I'm not. And I'm tired of people looking down at me as if I'm a saint just because I can't hang out, when in reality I wish I could at least spend an hour outside.

I know I have a better life than some other people. But it gets frustrating sometimes.
It does.
And I'm tired of looking for a damned job.
I NEED a job, I'm out of money, all my savings from all these years, which where like almost 2000 dollars are all down the drain cause I had to give mom and dad for their bills. I was saving for a car! And they are in desperate need for more, and I can't get a job. :(

*sighs*

Tired. And not in the mood, for anyone, or anything.
Wishing to sleep until summer. Thanks

This one
It really says what I'm feeling/thinking of.
And I think it's the first time I have written something like this; something I have kept secret for too long.

Or soon I'll be, idk at what time I was born.
But hey, I feel horrible, great way to start your birthday huh?
My birthday was celebrated Saturday the 18th. ;D
And I come with pictures... whenever myspace allows me to log in. >:(

( Come on in to my farm house )

If you wish to see more pics, go to my public myspace album right here, so you can see the games and such ;D YES I had a KID LIKE BIRTHDAY PARTY. And I'm so happy I did.

big sis called: her husband abandoned her.
on a cheerful note, my friend jesenia came to visit.
I may be going to the beach on Sunday :D

Me Him

Is this how our valentine's day is going to be spent? fighting?
You know, valentine's day is just like any other day. Like they say at my grandma's religion, whatever I give you today I could have given you any other day.
yeah Will, the problem is, that if there weren't any days like this, when you are EXPECTED to give something, you wouldn't give anything at all through out the whole year... not even time...


I hate valentine's day.
I know it's late, but I was thinking... we aren't a couple anymore.
It hasn't been officially broken up between us, but hey, we aren't a couple.
You can notice in our conversations, our actions, and specially the time we spend together? which is non-existant. I only see him for half an hour Monday to Thursday because he takes me to my university. That half hour we are together, I am either crying because I am scared at how FUCKING FAST and MANIACAL he's driving, hiding my eyes and trembling... Sometimes only talking when I'm getting off... or after 15 minutes of being with him. Most of the times there's no good morning kiss, there is NEVER a good morning smile on his face.

he only calls on the mornings to say he's coming to pick me up. Most of this calls he's mad, even if he doesn't admit it, he is. Either that, or he just likes to scream at me. Hey, it's not my fault you are going to be late, again! Well.... sometimes, but not all the times.
only on the mornings, and sometimes at the late night, mostly a hi, what are you doing, im going to sleep bye conversation...


we are so broken up, and all because he can't be intelligent enough to actually appreciate the small things, the efforts... is it too difficult to think of me? and if he does think of me, is it too difficult to take some mins and talk to me, spend time with me... make me feel like he's there? Fuck this.

I am so tired.
so so tired, I should go to sleep.
I had a test today, I bet I failed. But hey, too many shit up in my mind. Couldn't get all the communication stuff inside of my head.

Oh btw, I fell.... again. This time, in front of the whole university, go me.
I've got bruises.
My cellphone fell from the second floor, somehow surviving the fall.
My back is hurting like craaaaaazy, my legs are being funny since then but I can't do anything but wait until my next appointment with the Doctor. *sighs*

Here are some pictures of me and my friends at college.
( OH HAII PICTURES. :) Cause Kisamekun wanted me to post some pictures of my life, remember? :) )

I'll try to write a decent entry.
I am currently feeling like shit so excuse me if it isn't decent enough for your friend list.

This week has been a blast, and not in a good way.
I have work like crazy, schoolwork that is.
No luck in the job hunting. I wont move, because mom had a fight with me about it.
Honestly, she is so bipolar it's impossible to understand.
Apparently I am the biggest bother ever, but they can't dispose of me one second.
One test, 3 chapters of Spanish, 2 oral reports for Communications, 1 oral report for English...

Tomorrow is St. Valentine's. I am trying to look at it with an optimist view.
Not being too good at it.
William gave me a hint that he had gotten me a big gift. But since it's not the first time he turns me doing I am not keeping any hope. At least without hope I wont get hurt, and if it's true I'll be surprised, both cases are looking pretty good. I got him the cutest card, some homemade chocolate and I am going to write him a letter. I know he hates reading, but I don't really have money to be spending on a video game... specially when that video game is going to be his distraction for some months and I'll be left behind.

Mom's birthday was the 7th, now that was a huge highlight.
I loved her reaction to the music, and the decorations...
8D


Yesterday dad got into yet ANOTHER car accident.
Not that bad, unlike the last one where he could have died. Thank God.


I feel horrible, my whole body aches, hurts, it's so difficult to describe. At times I feel like the pain is so much I'm going to die. But I never tell anyone, because I am not entirely sure I want to be saved or die for real. *sigh*

so I've been thinking...
it's stupid really but



according to Naruto, Jesus Christ was a ninja, or at least He could control chakra...



I mean, he walked on water, didn't He?

I am watching Godzilla.
XD

theres nothing better than the sound of the breeze. i love it.
I am at college right now, sitting beside a group of girls who are laughing at a fat guy just because he's wearing a jacket that "makes him look like a walrus", now they are laughing at some girl. *sighs* just as if Im back at highschool.

Im bored, no class until 12, hungry as hell (i ate some cookies but i really am hungry), coca cola truck infront of me, some bitch smoking some cheap cigar, me alone besides the stupid group of girls...

bleh.

from this:


to this:





Just so you can see how long it used to be? :)
I really LOOOOOOOOOOOOOVE my hair now <3

DO YOU LIKE GAMES, CHALLENGES AND FREAKY SCARY THINGS?

Well, http://www.grngecko.com/torment.html
Shit your pants out. I know I, being the shitty scaredy-cat I am, did.
So Jorge came to visit, and he had the brilliant idea of asking me to play that SHIT with him.
Now the game itself is beyond amazing, 'cause it's so DAMN DIFFICULT? AND SCARY? D:
We got to level... idk 22? WIth some random fucking scary guy saying LOOK BEHIND YOU
yah
creepy...



I think I wont sleep tonight.
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